In English, we are always asked to relate things in novels to the Bible.
I have nothing against this, but I don’t know the Bible. I was not brought up that way.
I don’t think that its fair for people like me to have to write an essay on things like that.
If my grade depends on knowing what things are in the Bible, then I am going to fail. And all teachers seem to think that everyone knows.
I just thought I would get that out of my head.
(For the record: I have nothing against the Bible, or anything taught in it, its just not what I was brought up with. I go to church events in Oregon and sometimes with friends, but not on a regular basis!)
All of my posts lately have consisted of nothing much other than that challenge.
So I am going to change that.
Senior year has begun. I am one week into it, and I can already tell that it is going to be a long ass year. The workload will be crazy. I am taking AP Chem, the hardest class at our school (SO MANY ASIANS); but I am so incredibly excited for that class.
I have someone I know in just about every class. And in the classes I don’t, I have made friends with a few people.
Overall, I am excited about this year. My life has turned around for the better. A year ago, I couldn’t think about anything but wanting to kill myself, to find a way out. Now, I am happy to wake up each morning and go to school. (As happy as one can be doing that.) Now I am as happy as I can remember myself being in quite a while. Not fully there yet, but there is progress.
Our football team somehow won the first game. Lets see if we can keep it up.
Currently, I am feeling lonely. My dad left for China for 2 and a half weeks. I get to stay home with Aiden and take care of him for this time, but I was kinda hoping to have my mom to take care of me (term used in the loosest way possible). Just to be there to be able to talk to, to stay at her house for once. But once again, she left town. So its just me and my pup. I miss my daddy.
I wonder when my mom is going to realize that soon, I am not going to care. I am going to be gone in less than a year, and at that point, I won’t even care how far away from her I am. She isn’t here for me now, so it won’t make a difference then. And she expects me to do what she wants me to do with my future? To go to the college of her choice? I don’t think so. If she wants me to do what she wants, she better damn well be here as I’m going through all this. But no, shes not. So I will go where I please. If I get accepted to PSU, to Portland I go. If I apply to a school on the east coast and get accepted, maybe I’ll go there. Don’t you dare yell at me for applying to a school on the east coast, complaining about money, when you can’t keep your butt at home for more than a few days. Maybe then you’d be able to afford that $50 application.